Morning thoughts

On the surface yesterday was just like any other day – it was actually a beautiful day. the sun was out and it warmed your skin and the air was filling with the warmth that comes with spring. Signs of new life and beginnings are everywhere you look with the tiny shoots springing up in the ground and birds chattering overhead. But to enjoy this day feels wrong because it was not a good day for everybody, in fact for some, it was the worst day. It was very uncomfortable to sit amongst the juxtaposition of such extreme emotions knowing that every person that I love and hold dear is facing their own insurmountable obstacle right now. My education reminds me that being able to live amongst these oppositions is what it means to be enlightened but that knowledge provides little comfort at times like these. My nature strives for perfection and fights to see things in black-and-white although the grey has started to take over more and more as I get older. Life is not just one thing – it is everything all at once and I guess I what I might be recognizing is that perhaps our only agency lies in our ability to choose how we let the events around us change how we see and interact with our world. Not to say that we can choose to never feel sadness or suffering again but to just stayed cognizant of the fact that the sun still shines in the birds still chirp and the flowers still bloom, even on your darkest day 🌻